5 Years Later...

I'm surprised I was ever able to find the time to write a blog post. I'll try and catch you up. I now have two adorable Chihuahua mix breed doggies: Milo, a boy who's a schnauzer poodle chihuahua; and Ivy, a girl who's a Chiweenie.

the day I got Ivy 8/30/2016

Milo and Ivy cuddling 4/27/2017

 I'm going to be entering my senior year at LSU. I am majoring in Sport Administration with a double concentration in Sport Commerce and Sport Leadership with a minor in Business. During my junior year, I began my internship with the Cox Communications Academic Center for Student-Athletes (CCACSA).

During my free time, I like to binge-watch Friends while making money on InboxDollars. And you know what's so funny is, around the time I started this blog, I was looking for something like InboxDollars, some easy way to make some money online, but kept failing to find anything that wasn't just a scam. A big reason for that was because I was so young, I was pretty much a useless demographic, and I wasn't about to build an early record of fraudulence.

 And with the knowledge of Excel and economics that I have acquired throughout the course of my college career thus far, I made a plan: put my InboxDollars checks into savings and learn about the stock market (oh, btw, only reason why I am considering this is because I am already over $100,000 in student loan debt and I haven't even completed undergrad).

That definitely isn't everything but I've gotten you up to speed. And I'm about to do a massive blog facelift (I apologize for the years that I obsessed over neon colors and black and emo-punk).

I also need to make myself a new outro signature.... in the works.....

Mental Struggle

School is taking a toll on me.  Part of me wishes I had done the surgery after the school year ended but I have a feeling things wouldn't have been any better than they are now.

The stress from the school is making me and my mom lose touch and it makes me sad...

I want so much to just let it all go just give up, but I can't stop caring.  If I didn't care so much about school this whole phase would be much easier.  But I know I can get good grades when I am my normal self, I am just afraid of losing those grades because I'm not back to normal yet.

The greatest connection I have with anyone is my mom, and I don't want to lose that because of some teachers at some stupid school.  My health and my family come before school any day of the week and no one can convince me otherwise.  What was I doing before kindergarten?  I was bonding with my mom and my brother.  I was getting sick with fevers over 100 and was trying to get better.  They come first, no matter how the school or the teachers want me to prioritize I am sticking to the values that I was raised with.

I just hope I can raise my children to care, but not care to the point of stressing themselves out.  I don't want them to be the carefree low grade students, but I don't want them to put as much pressure on themselves as I put on myself.

Everything is falling apart and it feels like my fault... I don't know what to do...

       ~Rosie